Divorce
So I Am Getting A Divorce, It's OK
By Kasi Mani
Aug 28, 2002, 22:42

After seven years I am faced with the reality that is slapping me dead in my face. I am getting a divorce, I will be a single parent and to top it all of f I am pregnant. 

If I think about it to hard I begin to feel myself slip into self-pity and depression. Wondering how I am going to support myself and my children, will he help, how will I get my things to the new state I now live in and the biggest of all what did I do?

It is so easy for me to sit on the couch and watch t.v. all day instead of reaching for my goals. Why should I get dressed, or go outside today?
I am tired, angry and solemn. I am depressed.

I don't want to be depressed, I made a decision and now I am going to live with it. I have two children to think of and they are my biggest responsibility. They deserve a mother not some inactive lump that just sits on the couch wondering.

Being depressed is the easy part, pulling yourself out of depression is the hard part. The key is to realize that you are only responsible for you. Whatever happened in your marriage is your fault. It is important for you to realize this but it is more important for you to realize that it is ok. If you sit down and look back on your marriage you will probably find that your mate was giving you signs way before the marriage ended. So, if your mate was cheating and you overlooked it or if he/she was abusive and you said it was ok then it is only your fault that you didn't head the warning signs and open the door to your future that they were opening for you. Once you understand that we were put on earth to succeed and divine guidance only places on our plate what we can handle and nothing less. 

I thought for sure that my world had come to an end but when I stepped out of depression and into reality it became clear that my husband had only helped me not hindered me. I was on a journey like the rest of us and my relationship with him had brought me to the next step of my journey. I was here at this point to learn how to heal myself. Only I could do that. I had to learn how to love myself enough to realize that there was no need for me to suffer in order to succeed. There is no need for any of us to suffer.

Divorce can be a difficult thing but it can also be very rewarding. Once you learn that you are worthy and that you can can handle divorce, because it is not the end of the world then it is easier to realize that this small pit stop on your journey is only a door to the next journey and you are always in control. 

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